Ain't that the truth!

Rain...Finally

Monsoon season is finally upon us in Colorado, Western Colorado at least. I've been watching the clouds think about letting go for days and then pass us over for the higher altitudes. It is a good day for staying in and working on whatever projects need to be completed indoors. I was going to work on my roses today, but I'll wait. Maybe the morning will be better for taking care of them. I like the rain. It feels cooling and cleansing after record setting heat over the last month. I know this won't last, August is predicted to be as bad as July has been. So in the meantime, I'll take the respite, open my windows and let the air in and listen to the rain.

It's School Supply Season!

School starts here in a couple of weeks and the schools supplies are filling our shelves! I'm beside myself. I just love school supplies! I would follow anyone to the ends of the earth who sent me a bouquet of sharpened pencils! Yes, it's an old tired line, but really... I use pens, highlighters, post-it notes galore to mark interesting text or anything that helps me remember a passage for my writing projects or simply something I read that moves me. Oh! It's just my favorite time of year!

Summer Nights

My ex-husband and I were talking the other day about living in Grand Junction. Years ago it didn't have the allure that it has in our older years. The quiet life, the farmer's markets, Main Street. When we were young we craved the excitement of the front range, especially Boulder, where we were both born and raised. One summer, we took a week from work and headed home to visit. We left Grand Junction late and rolled into Boulder about 10:30 p.m. We were driving up Broadway which passes through Boulder's downtown mall. It makes the national tourist headlines as a stopping place. There really is nothing like Boulder's downtown, done only as Boulderites can do it. That night it was packed, no one was expecting us, or waiting up, so we stopped and wandered the four blocks that are the downtown mall. Buskers everywhere, musicians on either end. The one we stopped and listened to for about two hours was the Andean musicians. The Peruvian Flute, the Paraguayan Harp, and other accompanying instruments. We sat facing Boulder Canyon that leads to Nederland, Caribou, and the Peak to Peak Highway. Boulder was a supply town to the gold mining towns in surrounding mountains and grew rapidly into a college town and later a high tech hub. Downtown has always been the heart of whatever latest business phase is floating through the city. And yet, it has also always been the place that Boulderites gather to celebrate and enjoy the cool breezes of the summer nights.

Meditation

I've been unbelievably mentally exhausted over the last couple of months. Trying to work on my book project, training and playing with Callie, managing the front end at my store, taking over scheduling at work, learning back up bookkeeping, walking to my meetings with a girlfriend to make sure I squeeze in aerobic exercise during the day, doing some weight training to tone up, beginning to date again and meet new people, attempting to define the life I want in sobriety, buying a new computer, learning my digital camera, cleaning house...Whew! My life is not busier than the average person, this is probably nothing to some mother's out there. Thank God I don't have kids! My life on one hand is extremely easy and fun and light, yet, on the other hand, extremely busy and hectic. I am relearning to live again after the hell of addiction and there is just a lot to do in a 24-hour period. To add to it, my brain won't shut up. It runs in circles with a million different thoughts that makes me just crazy! I taught myself a mantra a few years ago after a head injury to calm myself during panic attacks that was one of the results of the head injury. I have gotten away from those quieting moments as life has picked up momentum. Today, I couldn't get rested enough. I'd lay down and sleep and wake up more exhausted, and my brain was churning. Finally, I laid down and chanted my mantra for a full half hour. Finally!! I feel rested, rejuvenated and ready to hit the road for another busy afternoon and evening! I write this as a reminder to myself...don't forget the meditation!

The Universe

I like this quote from The Alchemist. "When you want something all the universe conspires to help you achieve it," the old king had said.

It has been proven over and over to me personally and in the lives of my friends and loved ones. The thing left unsaid in this statement is, be specific and be very, very careful about what you wish for and truly want. You will get it.

Home

Place is very import ant to me. I like to feel welcome, I like to be surrounded by beauty and wonderful people. I have that here. I can't imagine being anywhere else. I tried it. I felt isolated, alone and unsupported by the space around me and the people in my life. I found that I had to leave here to discover how important it is for me. Everywhere I go I feel welcome, by the surroundings, by the people, by the landscape. It wraps its arms around me and I feel safe. Even when I'm in the middle of nowhere, by myself. The world around me supports my sense of self and ability. I appreciate the beauty everywhere in my life and I feel at home, at peace.